stay at home mom

Soul searching anyone?

Okay, so I've been doing a lot of thinking lately. It's time to come clean. Although I post all these lovely things to my blog, I haven't been completely honest.

You see, I'm trying to channel all this creative energy but I'm feeling scattered, a little lost and a lot frustrated.

You could call me a bit of a mess.

I have literally immersed myself into the blogging world and on the one hand I'm totally enamored and on the other I'm completely overwhelmed.

One minute I'm making a collage, the next I'm photographing flowers, followed by an intense compulsion to change everything in my house to french/vintage/shabby chic (much to my husband's annoyance).

Is this soul-searching? What is the proverbial key to happiness and does it really need to be this confusing? Is there such thing as being over-inspired?

I've been reading Artful Blogging and it seems like this is something that many bloggers/stay at home moms go through, so that is encouraging.

Perhaps, it could be labeled as a creative evolution? That sounds better than a split personality...or a mental breakdown.

In the meantime, the laundry piles up, the drawers go unorganized and boxes, lining the garage, beg to be unpacked. Meal planning...no way! Blah...I have no time for such mundane things - or so my artist ego is telling me. I know I need to embrace both the domestic chores of my role as well as my artistic drive.  I'm just not sure how to find the balance.

Maybe I need to meander before I arrive at what truly makes me happy and fulfilled?

Speaking of meandering, my path has not been a straight one - creating Grace and Ivy skin care led me to blogging, which led me back to writing and a new and deep love of photography, through exploring blogs and their visuals it has brought me to crafting and essentially back to my creative self.

Oh.

Ooooh...Oprah would be proud. I think I just had an Ah-ha moment.

I have gone full circle and have arrived back at myself. The artist. Oh.

{A moment of silence to let the ah-ha moment to sink in}

I feel better.

I'm going to post this before I chicken out.

xo,

p.s. Thanks for listening. Please let me know if you are going thru the same thing...I would love to hear about it.